I do not know myself and God forbid that I should.
In a few moments, I'm gonna peal a big, sweet, cool, orange and eat it. A few minutes ago I posted an add on craigslist to sell my car. This would normally break my heart. I do love my Lexus. But it's 60 degrees and the sun is out. I had a great 55 mile bike ride this morning, (I really like The Evanston Bike Club.) The flat I had on the way home didn't even phase me. 3 cars stop and asked if I need help or a lift somewhere. Then, a Evanston City worker offers me the use of the air compressor in the city truck.
I stopped at Pony Shop, a bike shop on my way home to get a new spare tube and patches. In the shop a guy speaks up and saying he had just past me fixing my flat. We got into a conversation outside the store and it turned out quite pleasant. What a great day!!
I started this day in fear. Last night I lay wake thinking that I shouldn't ride, my karma is to bad, I made a promised a friend I show up. She'll understand, maybe. I need to change my luck. I need to fix my Karma, I need to get that car sold, I'm in so much trouble financially. I have to work on making money. I have another damn cold as if I didn't have every cold there ever was this year already. Aren't my other physical ills enough.. It's all to much. Another bunch of problems and not enough solutions. A bad situation and thinking for my type of mentality. What to do? Then telling myself, "Don't go there." I focused on just starting the day.
A few night before I and a bad dream. Just got in my car in this dream, started driving down the street, entering the intersection there was water rushing toward me from all sides. Quickly deciding to run for it, I opened the door but it was to late. Water had already lifting the car and starting to move it quickly down the street. Something woke me and I'm very glad it did. Thinking the water was obviously from the Japan tsunami tragedy, but in a dream of a inlander it had to mean something other than water.
That dream has been affecting my decisions and my actions. I wouldn't have gotten on my bike if I hadn't felt I needed to move the car. {It's boot-able.) Since I was moving it might as well move it closer to the start of the ride. Maybe eliminate the flood of whatever it may be. In the dream my car was in front of a friends house. This morning it was in front of a repair shop so I felt a little safe. I know, what a chicken shit way of thinking but it worked for me. Got me up and out.
Got myself home. The Lexus is on Craigslist, and this orange is great!
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